Jeanna Murphy: Music

• MP3 short clip, hi-fi play (broadband)

This song resulted from a boring afternoon in college and a $20 used keyboard with a bunch of ridiculous synth sounds.  I was staring up at my roommates wall art and out came "Decisions".

 

 

Wishing, hoping, praying that the day will end…soon

I can’t help imagine what the day to come will bring me, I don’t know…what to do

I’m just so anxious to continue on with what I want to…do

Sitting, hoping, waiting, knowing that my day will come soon but when, tell me when

Am I making choices that I should or should I turn around and try…again

Can somebody point me in the way that I should go and help me…fly

Or should I drop what I’m doing, I’d rather die

 

Chorus:

Decisions

Decisions

What should I do from here

Go on

Go back

Or stay here

I’m tense from every angle as the pressure to succeed keeps on rising, rising

Where do I begin from is there someone I could talk to who knows

The party has been over for awhile and I don’t know how to get home

A ride would be the simple way to go but I am too afraid to ask, for help

Distractions all around me telling me to pay attention come and …play

It’s hard for me to argue when the voices are so loud I can’t hear myself talking

What do I do when I can’t even move anymore

What if it gets to the point that I’ve closed every door

 

Chorus:

 

Continue and continuing I feel my heart is wandering within

Watching, waiting, listening to all the people arguing about their lives standing still

They say they’ve all been listening but nothing’s ever happening, maybe it’s their fault

I can’t help but wonder what they’d do if they were completely alone

My choices here are limited to all the things imperative for here and now

No option here to clarify please step back and don’t deny your role

I’ve decided that I won’t be played for a puppet anymore

There I go I found another door

 

Music and Lyrics ©:  Jeanna Murphy February 11^th 2001